On Sunday morning, I rose
early. I had decided the night before to go to the ocean, so I slipped a
book and a bottle of water into a sack and caught a ride to Rockaway
Beach. It felt like a significant date, but I failed to conjure anything
specific. The beach was empty, and, with the anniversary of Hurricane
Sandy looming, the quiet sea seemed to embody the contradictory truth of
nature. I stood there for a while, tracing the path of a low-flying
plane, when I received a text message from my daughter, Jesse. Lou Reed
was dead. I flinched and took a deep breath. I had seen him with his
wife, Laurie, in the city recently, and I’d sensed that he was ill. A
weariness shadowed her customary brightness. When Lou said goodbye, his
dark eyes seemed to contain an infinite and benevolent sadness.
I
met Lou at Max’s Kansas City in 1970. The Velvet Underground played two
sets a night for several weeks that summer. The critic and scholar
Donald Lyons was shocked that I had never seen them, and he escorted me
upstairs for the second set of their first night. I loved to dance, and
you could dance for hours to the music of the Velvet Underground. A
dissonant surf doo-wop drone allowing you to move very fast or very
slow. It was my late and revelatory introduction to “Sister Ray.”Within a few years, in that same room upstairs at Max’s, Lenny Kaye, Richard Sohl, and I presented our own land of a thousand dances. Lou would often stop by to see what we were up to. A complicated man, he encouraged our efforts, then turned and provoked me like a Machiavellian schoolboy. I would try to steer clear of him, but, catlike, he would suddenly reappear, and disarm me with some Delmore Schwartz line about love or courage. I didn’t understand his erratic behavior or the intensity of his moods, which shifted, like his speech patterns, from speedy to laconic. But I understood his devotion to poetry and the transporting quality of his performances. He had black eyes, black T-shirt, pale skin. He was curious, sometimes suspicious, a voracious reader, and a sonic explorer. An obscure guitar pedal was for him another kind of poem. He was our connection to the infamous air of the Factory. He had made Edie Sedgwick dance. Andy Warhol whispered in his ear. Lou brought the sensibilities of art and literature into his music. He was our generation’s New York poet, championing its misfits as Whitman had championed its workingman and Lorca its persecuted.
As my band evolved and covered his songs, Lou bestowed his blessings. Toward the end of the seventies, I was preparing to leave the city for Detroit when I bumped into him by the elevator in the old Gramercy Park Hotel. I was carrying a book of poems by Rupert Brooke. He took the book out of my hand and we looked at the poet’s photograph together. So beautiful, he said, so sad. It was a moment of complete peace.
As news of Lou’s death spread, a rippling sensation mounted, then burst, filling the atmosphere with hyperkinetic energy. Scores of messages found their way to me. A call from Sam Shepard, driving a truck through Kentucky. A modest Japanese photographer sending a text from Tokyo—“I am crying.”
As I mourned by the sea, two images came to mind, watermarking the paper- colored sky. The first was the face of his wife, Laurie. She was his mirror; in her eyes you can see his kindness, sincerity, and empathy. The second was the “great big clipper ship” that he longed to board, from the lyrics of his masterpiece, “Heroin.” I envisioned it waiting for him beneath the constellation formed by the souls of the poets he so wished to join. Before I slept, I searched for the significance of the date—October 27th—and found it to be the birthday of both Dylan Thomas and Sylvia Plath. Lou had chosen the perfect day to set sail—the day of poets, on Sunday morning, the world behind him.
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